When You Realize You Are Totally Alone

Do you ever have those moments where it suddenly hits you—you’re totally alone? It’s a strange and unsettling feeling. Sure, you have family, friends, even a partner, but somehow, that doesn’t take away the loneliness. The truth is, even when people say they’re there for you, care about you, and love you, deep down, you know that if you truly opened up and let everything out, it would just be too much. You’d overwhelm them.

There are times when I find myself wanting to share what’s on my mind. I’ll start typing out a text, and halfway through, I stop. My thumb hovers over the “send” button, but I delete the message. I’ve learned that not every thought is meant to be shared, because sometimes the weight of it all is just too much—too much for others, and even for myself.

On the days when I do push past that hesitation and open up, I often regret it. It’s a cycle that makes me feel more isolated, which is part of the reason why I created this blog. Writing is my outlet, a way to release everything that’s swirling inside without burdening anyone else. But even that isn’t always easy. Some days, the emotions are too heavy, too hard to translate into words. On those days, it feels like I’m drowning in thoughts I can’t express.

Feeling alone isn’t just an absence of company—it’s a deep, hollow feeling that sits in your chest. It’s sad, draining, and, honestly, exhausting. There’s this expectation that you should always be there for others, even when you know they wouldn’t do the same for you. It’s frustrating to realize that while you give and give, when it’s your turn to receive, the silence is deafening.

Life, at times, feels like one big sad event. You go through the motions, try to be strong, but that sense of being truly alone never really goes away. And maybe that’s part of the human experience—feeling disconnected, even when you’re surrounded by people. But that doesn’t make it any less painful.

I guess the truth is, sometimes we’re just alone, even in the presence of others. It’s not a good feeling. It’s not something I’d wish on anyone, but it’s a reality I’ve come to accept.