The Accident

Reflecting on one of the most pivotal moments of my life – the accident I endured on October 29th, 2023 – brings forth a cascade of emotions and realizations. It was a fateful day when I found myself caught between the wreckage of our car and a sturdy wooden table, resulting in a pelvic fracture and painful bruises on my thighs.

The days that followed were a blur of uncertainty and physical limitations. Confined to a hospital bed, I grappled with the stark reality of potentially losing the ability to walk. Yet, amidst the darkness, a glimmer of light emerged. Surrounded by the unwavering support of my family, my boyfriend, and my closest friend, I found solace in their love and encouragement. In those moments of despair, their unwavering presence became my lifeline, anchoring me to hope and resilience.

Returning home with a newfound reliance on a cane, I was met with the daunting challenge of relearning basic movements under the watchful eye of my caring family. Tasks that once seemed mundane now posed formidable obstacles, and I found myself navigating the delicate balance between dependence and determination. My mom did most of the hard work. She helped me take a bath, she walked with me to the bathroom, and so on.

I felt like I was a kid who couldn’t do anything on her own. I still worked, though, since I had to pay the bills, but I can’t work as much as I used to. Since I could only lay in bed, I slept early and woke up a bit early, too.

Sometimes, it was hard to sleep. I could imagine the car moving towards me over and over again. But I’m glad that despite that, I could sleep even just for a bit.

The doctor advised me to try my best to rest in bed for a month. This gave me a lot of time to actually do stuff for myself, like watching series, taking online courses, reading books, and so on. Despite my injury, I was productive.

It was like a blessing in disguise when I finally got time for myself, doing the things I love. Those little habits I started during the accident continued up until I got the confirmation that my fracture was healed.

It has been four months since the accident. My pelvis is okay, but I have an issue with my knee that still needs to be checked. I could go out now, in fact, I try my best to leave the house once a week.

I still read books every morning, which is something I truly love. I woke up without any alarm, which I found very effective to start the day. I still don’t know my path, but the accident gave me a reason to wake up each day.

I wake up because I look forward to reading, spending time with my family, learning something new, and appreciating small things I took for granted.